it's suddenly dawned on me, how fast time passes. not like it's never dawned on me before, but just that it seems to be hitting me harder now, more than ever.

come end june, my boyfriend's going to graduate from high school and im going to be all alone in school. not like i dont have other friends to hang out and confide and stuff... but considering that my boyfriend is also my best friend and best confidant so far since i've come to Canada. omg im so scared now.

so alone.

somehow this prospect scares me shitless, even though i know it's something probably a lot of high school couples go through. i hate being alone. i was alone all my childhood, largely alone during my pre-teen to my younger teenage years, and now i dont want to go through those times again. i've found a best friend in a boyfriend, and i see him 6 times a week and talk to him on the phone everyday. it's hard to imagine this routine being interrupted in less than 6 months' time >.<

but before this time comes, we've decided to spend the whole summer together doing crazy and fun stuff together, just to have more quality time before he goes off to university. so i'll make a list of possible things we can do together! whee~


1) get insanely drunk and crash a funeral (latter optional)
2) go to the beach and sun-tan and other fun beachy stuff
3) ZOO!
4) street-performing in downtown toronto
5) rescuing animals? i dont know! >.<


cant think for now, will update this later. suggestions are welcome!